You could call it love at first feel.

If I had known what would come from agreeing to answer emails for Adama, I would probably have been much more nervous. I had been asking for my twin flame for years, but it took that long to work on myself, to begin to believe that it’s possible a man could love me for who I am. I think Marko could have probably used some more time to let go of his pain before meeting me, but I was reaching my limit. In the months before I met Marko, I asked to work through any final energies which held me back from manifesting my lover. At this point, I had given up asking for my twin flame. I just wanted my Mate, my Partner, the father of my children and the person I would co-create a life with.

In the last few weeks of that summer, I demanded him. Insisted he come into my life. I couldn’t go alone anymore. Honestly, when I think about how fragile I felt then, my tenuous grip on my emotions. . . I think something would have broken inside me, if I went on alone much longer.

So I knew he was coming into my life, and soon. I had received messages about my mate from my guides (most memorably, Asthar told me once, before I met Marko, “The father of your children is real. He wants to support you. You have to LET HIM.”) In the weeks leading up to meeting Marko, I felt more and more joy, everyday. I had multidimensional experiences with his spirit (feeling him just out of time). I knew it would be long distance (though I didn’t realize we would meet online).

When Adama told me he wanted my help connecting consciously with more people, I didn’t think it would have such a huge impact on my life. I thought, why not? I was done working and had oodles of time on my hands. I loved that first month of emails, when I could just give myself to responding fully for Adama.

Marko was one of the first to email Adama. The way he shared his heart brought tears to my eyes. My heart was so touched and I felt I understood him. This was not that unusual. I felt quite honored to read what people shared with Adama, I was often moved to tears by those early messages to Adama. But something in me responded to the energies contained in Marko’s email. I read it a couple times, before responding on Adama’s behalf. And when the second email came, my heart leapt, and I rushed to answer it before Erin could. Silly, isn’t it? I was possessive of him from the start. Somehow I knew it was “my” email to respond to. I couldn’t begin to explain the strange disappointment when he mentioned girls. It was so faint, I barely noticed that emotion. All I noticed was how clearly I saw his broken heart, and how I wanted to be the one to heal it.

Selene speaking:                                                                                     8/15/11

Marko, my dear friend. Adama is standing next to me, waiting for his turn to speak to you, but I was SO TOUCHED by your email that I asked to speak first, so that I’m not getting in the way, when Adama does speak to you.

You are so welcome, my friend. Thank you SO MUCH for your love and the purity of your heart. I see it and felt in when reading your email. You brought tears to my eyes. [I encouraged him to email as much as he wanted.]

I was shocked by the first thing you said, which was that you were shocked to get a response. Why wouldn’t you get a response? I’m not sure I understand that. Adama loves you so much, and will always, always respond, whether you hear him or not.

And when you said that you’d rather sit and watch the sunset with us, my heart was so touched. I could feel us, sitting together, sharing love and energy. That is where we are in spirit, soon, our physical experiences will match our spiritual ones, even more.

I love you,
Selene

In reading this first direct communication between the two of us, I am amazed by how true my words were. Straight from the start I said “I Love You”! I had no idea. Normally, when I felt much love for someone I would sign my emails “with love, Selene”. What a difference.

A few emails later, Adama invited Marko to be friends with me on my behalf (I didn’t quite have the courage to do it myself. haha!) He shared that we were “friends” in past lives. I new he meant “lovers” but said friends out of respect for my shyness. That day we chatted in gmail chat for the first time. I was so excited. Then we video chatted and omg he was cute. Imagine how I felt reading him tell Adama that I was very much his “type”. That night, I had 3 consecutive past life memories of being lovers in Atlantis. It was quite graphic and intense. (I’ve since remembered ALOT more lifetimes together).

The next day, I hopped on a bus to go to a coffee shop for a steady internet connection so we could skype for the first time. I had butterflies. It felt like a date. I thought I was crazy! I asked Adama to please help me not have those feelings and he said “Why???” I replied, He lives in Croatia!! And Adama said “So?”  With that simple advice from Adama, a weight lifted from me and I focused on enjoying myself. I had the best time, chatting on Skype with Marko. I was laughing and FLIRTING! (I never feel good at flirting and I was doing it naturally.) Marko made me feel so comfortable. And, when I shared with him that I remembered accidentally killing him with sex when I was a mermaid and he was an Atlantean. . . he didn’t think I was crazy! He considered it and said, “Not a bad way to go,” laughing.

Soon after that, again, at the bus stop, I thought very clearly, “I want him. I don’t care how far away he is. I want him.” I felt my angels gather and ask me, “Are you sure?” I had zero hesitation. “Yes. I want him.” In that moment, I felt my whole internal axis shift. I FELT my life path shift to reflect that choice. I spent the next several months waiting for Marko to decide if he wanted me too.

Lucky for me, I think he wants me too. (Here is his side of the story.)